I'm a Survivor

Breaking point

2008-03-07T08:55:00.000-08:00

I want my parents to have an easy life
I want my parents to be proud of my achievements.
I never want them to shed a tear because of me
I want them to see me settled down in my own house and with a family of my own.

Things are never gonna be the same again..

Happiness.....

2007-09-22T13:49:00.000-07:00

2007-09-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

My level of patience is alrdy beyond limits..At any time i might juz snap at that woman..Who does she think she is? I am done doing things for you, siding with you whenever u have arguments and sacrificing so much for u..My heart has created a barrier for us to communicate anymore becoz u have cause so much pain and misery for my family.. I juz wish that u wld juz see my rationale instead of making me suffer esp when things are geting to the brink of despair. Pls someone help mi..Things are getting out of control where one party is withdrawing herself from the family and the other party who thinks she's born with a silver spoon in her mouth..

If things are not back on track by this thurs which is the start of the fasting mth, i have no idea how i will be by then...

2007-08-26T13:43:00.000-07:00

Tears are flowing continous ryte now..I juz feel so numb after all the heated arguments.Pls god,give me strength to pull it together.

I love you veri much,Muhd Farhan.

Wishes..

2007-08-18T03:14:00.000-07:00

Baby,i really need you now...I noe that ure having a blast in Bintan ryte now and i really miss u tons.,,In time to come i really pray that my family won't fall to pieces coz things ryte now are tearing us apart..

Welcome to our life....

2007-07-21T23:23:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone... Been ages since Latifah's last blogged, i know.... Anyway, just for everyone's information, this isn't Latifah's entry. I'm her boyfriend, and I'm going to let everyone into a sneak peek of what has been going on in our lives for the past seven months..

20-12-2006

The day that started it all... This was the very day that she said yes.. Happiest moment of my life. Don't know about her though..hee!! Years of pursuit, though agonising at times, finally reaped rewards for us.. And to this very day, I've never regretted it.. She's been a darling, a real darling..

Throughout the times that we have been together, she's changed...matured in fact... Really proud of her. From the loud, straight talking lady that she was, she's mellowed and transformed into a beautiful swan...elegant, gracious, demure, caring, lovely..phew, the list to describe her just goes on and on...

20-07-2007

We just celebrated our seven months together.. Great celebration.. N most of all, love the present she got for me...

Babe, though our journey together is still very short, life with you has been a bliss.. No one, and I mean this, will ever be able to give me the amount of happiness that you have given me thus far... I love you, then, now and Insya'Allah for the rest of my life. Looking forward to a lifetime with you....... :-)

My love..

2007-06-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry for all the things i said to you...I'll never trade your love for aniting.Lets work extra hard towards our dream k... Missing you a lot though i'm gonna see you in ard 4 hrs time...Hehehe!!!

Re:EMOTIONS

2007-05-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

Only God knows wat im feeling inside... There are so many things that i wanna share its juz too much for mi to type down..

Firstly the feelings i have is beyond words.I could never imagine me and my mum to be reli bonding apart from the normal squabbles..U noe how it is to bring up 4 grown up ladies and them having strong opinions. So Mummy i may not be highly educated and not the one who has the chance to go overseas to further her studies but i will sacrifice aniting for you to be proud of mi and i wouldn't want you to shed any tear for your children anymore.You may not openly display ure affections for mi or ure other 3 princessess but i know deep in ure heart that u love us more than anything in this world and it's reli difficult for u to let go of ure girls one by one when the day comes for them to be taken away by their future husbands.But remember that i'll always be ure little girl who can't even thank you enough for sacrificing so much for our family and please forgive mi for the mistakes i have done in the past.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!!

My Love

2007-04-19T10:34:00.000-07:00

Missing you so much ryte now...Can't wait to see you soon, my love!!!!

Check out my Slide Show!

2007-03-07T20:47:00.001-08:00

Prom Nite

2007-03-03T04:43:00.000-08:00

My love is out of town for two days,missing him so badly ryte now...So love please do take care of yourself k..I'll always be right here waiting patiently for you to come back to Spore...

Its time...

2007-02-28T07:21:00.000-08:00

Hey my beautiful pple..Its been quite sometime since i've blogged... Yes everyone i have finally graduated..Life have been a rollercoaster ride for mi..Let the pics do the talking aite..

2007-01-23T10:53:00.000-08:00

Juz a bunch of pics i took in the middle of the nite while rushing for my proj...
One last proj to go...

What more can i ask for..

2007-01-21T02:48:00.000-08:00

Despite us spending time together for a short period time, it was definetely worth it...I've learnt that its not the material possessions that u ought to cherish but the moments u have with each other coz these unforgetable moments are for keeps...

My Love,

I'm so happy that you didn't give up on me and i have no regrets in being with you for the past 1 month..You make mi become a better person and taught me to treasure even the shortest moments in life..

When things are changing all around us
And the world seems to move to fast
Don't forget I'll be right beside you
Loving you

You're the future i have dreamed of,
you're a new and brighter day.
With you there is no looking back,
The past can fade away.

Dont forget to look beside you
Because that's where you'll find me
Loving you with all my heart
You are my new beginning,
You're the door to life beyond.
You're all that I could ever want

2007-01-18T06:11:00.000-08:00

Too many things to do but too little time...Now i truly understand the meaning of true love...I couln't have asked for more.What i have ryte now is truly sacred and beautiful and i noe that we will make it till the end baby..I am so blessed wit u by my side always.....

LOVE IS NOT WANTING TO HAVE THE PERFECT MAN BUT TO HAVE A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP..

Missing you ryte now...

2007-01-11T11:12:00.000-08:00

Pls excuse mua for the overload of pics but i'm like in the mood for creating slideshow recently. Dun reli feel like blogging coz i have too much on my mind ryte now..I'm so looking forward to 15 Feb coz tats when i can completely enjoy my holidays..No more school for mi.Yipeee!!!

xoxo...

Re: Love has no boundaries

2007-01-05T10:08:00.000-08:00

Contented with wat i have ryte now..To some pple out there who are against my relationship wit him,,pls do understand that the feelings we have for each other is veri real and i wouldn't trade him for aniting else in the world.I'm juz glad to have him by my side always.He understands me without question and never did give up on me...

I've learnt that there is no such thing as finding a perfect man but finding a perfect love. Someone who makes sacrifices for you,able to make u laugh even wen u have a bad day and someone who showers you with unconditional love and affections..
I believe i have found tat special someone who makes mi feel appreciated and loved.

Hearts you baby...

Check out my Slide Show!

2007-01-03T09:56:00.000-08:00

Lil something special

2006-12-30T02:29:00.000-08:00

Contented....

2006-12-29T12:31:00.000-08:00

I don’t need me a basketball player
All I need is somebody that’s down for me
And he don’t have to have money
His love is just like honey
It’s so sweet to me
He can have everything in this world
But he'll sacrifice it all for me
And I made up my mind
I’m in love this time
And it feels so real

2006-12-27T10:25:00.000-08:00

Looking in your eyes i see a paradise
This world that i've found
Is too good to be true
Standing here beside you
Want so much to give you
This love in my heart that im feeling for you
Let them say we're crazy,i don't care about that
Put your hand in my hand baby
Don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world's runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other.

Unforgettable

2006-12-26T06:23:00.000-08:00

I love it wen he gives mi surprises
I love it wen he tucks my hair behind my ears
I love it wen he kisses my forehead
I love it wen he holds my hand and never wants to let go
I love it wen he shares personal details wit mi
I love it wen he compliments mi even though at times i refuse to believe it

i believe that love works in mysterious ways and i noe i have made the right choice in choosing Muhd Farhan Bin Yaacob...Hope i dun spell it wrongly..hehehe!!!

2006-12-24T10:38:00.000-08:00

This has been the best year ever...Nothing could ever replace this wonderful feelings i have ryte now..It started out from a friendship,without me having any feelings for him but thru his patience and perseverance,i have given him a chance to prove to me that he's worth it..I noe i'm ready to start a brand new journey wit him and i'm sure that he feel the same way...

2006-12-22T08:36:00.000-08:00

I'll let pictures describe wat im feeling ryte now...

2006-12-19T22:56:00.000-08:00

Sori guys..The Laziness bug has taken over mi so i've decided to juz post pictures..

Will be bek soon for more updates...

2006-12-15T08:24:00.000-08:00

Hey pple i'll be having a well deserved break at Malacca so will onli be bek on wed...Relating to my previous entry,juz know that im happier than hw i was before..
No need to go into details yar...

2006-12-14T05:14:00.000-08:00

Happy is wat i am ryte nw....

Things wat i wan ryte for christmas:

1. New hairdo... (Someone pls tell santa to donate money to me)
2. Vintage dresses
3. A pair of Gap Jeans
4. New makeup items frm MAC or Bobby Brown
5. Brand new lappie

Splendid evening....

2006-12-11T11:26:00.000-08:00

In the midst of preparing for my LAM TEST 2MR but so nt sleepy...
I have decided to take a huge risk and accept wat's gonna happen in the future.Let's call this an open relationship...Shd he find some1 better, i'll be happy for him..

2006-11-28T09:20:00.000-08:00

I dream of having someone to treat me like a lady
I dream of having someone giving mi handmade gifts rather than buying me a gift
I dream of someone kissing me on my forehead and comforting mi wen i had a bad day
I dream of someone doin something outrageous for me.

I juz wanna have fun dating and nt be restricted to just one guy...
It takes lots of patience and endurance if u wanna be with me..
Boyfriends come and go but true friends stay with you till forever.
I'm so fortunate to have a tight grp of frens in which i can be myself and nt pretending to be someone i'm not.

2006-11-24T05:08:00.000-08:00

In times like tis,wat i need most are my sweeties...
I've learnt tat in life, it doesn't pay to be too nice to pple..

2006-11-22T12:41:00.000-08:00

2006-11-10T17:47:00.000-08:00

I wish i had a different life
I wish i had motherly figure to guide me
I wish she juz stops all tis crap and knows tat i always love her
I wish tat she showers me with love and affection
I wish to tell her tat its the love tat matters and not the monetary value.
I wish she changes her opinions on my life
I wish tat she talks to us about her problems
I wish to say "I LOVE YOU" to her but it's hard
I wish to tell her tat its nt tat i refuse to share things wit her,its juz tat whenever she's bek frm work,i juz don't see the joy and happiness in her eyes..
I wish to say to her tat its ok tat u make mistakes and its nt always the childrens' fault...

Juz felt like writing tis down coz im reli feeling shit ryte nw...Aniwae im so thankful to have a close knit of frens who i can depend on...Luv ya guys so much!!!!

2006-11-01T04:40:00.000-08:00

2006-10-21T14:07:00.000-07:00

Miss Cambodia and its beautiful scenery
If i have loads of money,i wanna bring bek the kids frm FGAC back to Spore
Missing all my ITE peeps and things will never be the same again...
Reli looking forward to my prom nite and the gorgeous outfit i'm gonna buy....
Wanna change my entire wardrobe and start dressing more feminie and look my age...
Often was mistaken for a Thai / Philipines gerl wen i was over at Cambodia...
Desire to escape to an isolated island and sort out my thoughts
Pampering myself wit shopping,massages,makeup,shoes,accessories,etc....
Loads of parties and school reunions wit my old frens
Looking forward to goin over to Canada,Nepal and Australia....

I see you looking at me
Like I got something for you
And the way that you stare
Don't you dare
Cause I'm not about to
Just give it all up to you
Cause there are some things I won't do
And I'm not afraid to tell you
I don't ever want to leave you confused

The more you try
The less I buy it
And I don't have to think it through
You know if I'm into you

I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around

You know I got my own life
And I bought everything that's in it
So if you want to be with me
It ain't all about the bling you bringing
I want a love that's for real
And without that then no deal
And baby I don't need a hand
If it only wants to grab one thing

The more you try
The less I buy it
And I don't have to think it through
You know if I'm feeling you

I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around

Pics whoring.....

2006-10-15T14:23:00.000-07:00

Emotions

2006-10-14T14:38:00.000-07:00

Well been bugged by someone to blog bout my trip to Cambodia..Juz been too busy wit my hse renovations!!

Events that happened since im bek in Spore:

1.Hurt my toes reli bad till it bruised
2.Hurt my finger...
3.Unpacking all the boxes into my newly renovated room.

Well peeps if u tink i 4gt bout u guys,dun wori so much yar..Juz been so preoccupied wit stuff...If u wanna noe more bout my trip to Cambodia,pls giv mi a buzz aite...

In the meanwhile juz enjoy some pics i took in the beautiful Cambodia..Wanna go bek there reli badly,missing all the people there esp Sok Hai,Ryan,Rocket,Tiger,Thieanee and the rest....Sobs!!!!

Soul Searching

2006-09-22T03:34:00.000-07:00

Hey pple....Gonna juz say a few words nw...Missing all my peeps ryte nw like my BaOC pple, My ITE mates and so on..Yipeee i cleared all my modules and finally i managed to achieve an AD for my module....Well i juz wanna take things off certain things and tats the reason i signed up for the Cambodia trip but somehow i dun feel the bond among them yet..So much bitching goin ard this particular grp but i dun care bout them..I juz wanna enjoy tis trip to the fullest and hopefully bring bek something for my dearies....

Memories that wld last 4eva

2006-09-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

Pink-Who knew

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

The Veronicas-When it all falls apart

I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
(Before you came)
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face
(Not again)

And not to mention
The tears, the shame
I should have kicked your
Ass and said
I need intervention
Attetion to stop this to wretched scream
Cause baby

Everything is fucked up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ooh

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
(Anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
(Afraid to pause)

And not to mention
(I drank too much)
I'm feelin' hungover
(Out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop this wretched scream
Cause baby

Everything is fucked up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ooh

Can't it be easier
Can I just change my life
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
With no demading
No other ending
Once again

Everything is fucked up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

Everything is fucked up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

No, ooh
When it all falls apart
No, ooh
When it all falls apart
No, ohh

Everything is fucked up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

Important dates

2006-08-08T12:07:00.000-07:00

Well juz feel so lazy to write a super long entry..In the midst of revising CMA but im so not in the mood for revision these past few days...Haiz must get cracking soon!!!

Dates to remember:

1 March 2007- Graduation Nite
26 Sept- 10 Oct 06- Serve Cambodia Trip
22 Sept 06- Daddy's 60th Birthday
17 Sept 06- IMF Event
13- 15 Sept 06- Serve Cambodia Bonding Camp
4 Sept 06- Mahesh's Birthday
18,23,25 Aug 06- Exams
10 August 06- Paru's 21st Birthday Celebration at Bali Thai Restautant,IMM at 1pm.

Boredom...

2006-08-07T11:14:00.000-07:00

Random post

2006-07-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

NICK LACHEY-ON AND ON

When the darkness finds the night
My heart still beat for you
In your eyes I see the lie
What can I do, I'll try my best to walk away
So I don't have to feel the pain
It goes on and on, on and on
And this emptiness I feel goes on and on
On and on
As I cry myself to sleep I just can't go on
On and on
When this love I feel for you is so strong
On and on, on and on
Why can't I feel your heartbeat next to mine
The way it used to be
I love that purpose that is so right
I need you to see I try my best to walk away
But I just can't ignore the pain
It goes on and on, on and on
And this emptiness I feel goes on and on, on and on
As I cry myself to sleep I just can't go on
On and on
When this love I feel for you is so strong
On and on, on and on
Can I find a way to let you know
Could I ever make you see
Baby you took my soul and took my heart
But the pain you left all for me
It goes on and on
On and on
and this emptiness I feel, it goes on and on, on and on
As I cry myself to sleep I just can't go on
On and on
When this love I feel for you is so strong
On and on, on and on

You've got someone else to share your nights
I guess it's meant to be
In your eyes I see the lie
But the light's not from me
I turn around and walk away
But I'll never escape the pain
It goes on and on, on and on
It goes on and on

NICKLEBACK-THIS IS HOW YOU REMIND MI

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time i'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
And i've been wrong, i've been down,
To the bottom of every bottle
It's the words in my head
Scream "are we having fun yet?"

Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

It's not like you didn't know that
I said i love you and i swear i still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how, you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how, you remind me
Of what i really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time i'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
And i've been wrong, i've been down,
To the bottom of every bottle
It's the words in my head
Scream "are we having fun yet?"

Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am

THE CALLING-THINGS WILL GO MY WAY

I came to tell you
How it all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I'm broken down again
So hold me now
Say it's not forever
Cause maybe someday
In time
Things will go my way...
Things will go my way...
I've pushed to get through
The crowds of twisted souls
Just to find I'm right back here
Doing what I'm told
So take my hands
Don't let me surrender
Cause maybe someday
In time
Things will go my way...
Things will go my way...
Things will go my way...
For all the lies I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am i to do?
When everything's against me
And the answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
It was worth it all along...
So hold me now
Say it's not forever
Cause I know someday
In time
Things will go my way...
Things will go my way...
Things will go my way...
For all the lies I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am I to do?
When everything's against me
And the answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
Things will go my way

Misunderstood!

2006-07-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

I guess pple juz misunderstood mi tat much..How could an individual juz judge a person by its outlook or quality of work...It doesn't pay to be too kind to people as soon u realise tat they're nt actuali ure true friends..Some pple juz does not appreciate the kindness and compassion that i have and true enough i'm indeed a veri difficult and complicated person to please/ understand..But i noe tat i have gd moral values and if tat certain sum1 happen to test my patience,tat certainly accounts for war...

Reli wanna juz break free and escape to an isolated island...Maybe i shd one day yar!!

People tat i miss the most:

1. Fazila
2. Mahesh
3. Zul
4. ITE peeps esp the little ones
5. Faizal(Childhood fren)
6. Kreva
7. Powerhouse people
8. Jamal
9. Rizal LYS
10.Sri Malini

Yeah can't wait for my cambodia trip wit my sweeties....

2006-06-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry peeps for the long awaited entry..Its such a blessing to be surrounded by true friends when ure juz feeling down and all u ever wanna do is run away to an isolated island and break down..I've never reli understood the beauty of friendships coz in the past i was blinded by people's fake attitude towards me.Some pple pretended to be my friends coz they wanted something frm mi..I received dirty notes,my locker was broken into,books stolen and friendships were lost due to nasty rumours about me..I'm proud to say that i've matured so much in terms of my personality n trusting pple all over again...Relationships have been so difficult for me to handle as i would doubt their sincerity and would often question myself on whether i deserved to be loved and appreciated..After enduring shit from certain peeps,ive experienced so much in my life and it would be a dream come true if i could find that special someone who makes me appreciate love.I guess i was too afraid to open my heart to certain possibilities and taking tat chance to love all over again...

Random entry

2006-05-11T20:01:00.000-07:00

Chris got eliminated man!!!Gosh...Aniwae im sure he's have his own album real soon.He's freaking yummy and hot man!!!Well i can't wait for my nxt Rodeo outing and Astro camp..Gonna have an awesome time wit my gerls.The poking fun at pple sessions,our loud and crazy antics and us being camera whores!!!!Ooooo cheers to tat...Aniwae can't wait to meet up wit my fren who's flying in frm Canada.I feel as though i miss those time wen all of us used to hang out together and the bond we had as a class..These beautiful friendships tat i formed wit my babes are for life and unforgettable and i can't wait for a real get-together wit them like maybe we could have a chalet cum bbq real soon...

Lazy....

2006-05-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

No offence guys but im juz too lazy to blog..So juz enjoy these pics k...

LOVE...

2006-05-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

I wanna make some important changes in my life.Reli drastic ones too...An event tat recently happen reli shook mi and gav mi wake-up call to take better control of my life..I'm taking baby steps to be a better daughter,sister,grandaugthter and friend..I noe in the past i have been treating certain pple like shit and wanna reli apologise for my mistakes..It reli hurts mi to see tat person break down and cry...I wanna make u proud of mi after all the sacrifices u hav done..It dosen't matter if there's no monetary value,but i love you so much and i wouldn't trade tat for aniting else..I noe tis may sound cheesy but I LOVE MY DADDY so much....Reli wanna cherish all the memories we have coz life is reli precious.You might not noe wen tat person is gonna live till so guys better treasure your loved ones even if they irritate you..To all my frens out there,,love you too..Muackz!!!!

Feelings deep inside....

2006-04-28T20:26:00.000-07:00

Been doin serious tinking lately...I reli wanna excel in my poly education and strive to aim for excellent grades...So frm nw on,i'll work doubly hard...Tats a promise i make to myself....Juz came across these awesome songs n totally can relate to them..

The Veronicas-Everything I'm Not
don't go changing
that's what you told me from the start
thought you where something different
that's when it all just fell apart
like you're so perfect
and i can't measure up
well i'm not perfect
just all messed up

i was loosing myself to somebody else
but now i see
i don't wanna pretend
so this is the end of you and me
cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
cause she's everything
everything i'm not

it's not like i need somebody
telling me where i should go at night
don't worry you'll find somebody
someone to tell how to live their life
cause your so perfect
and no one measures up
yeah all by yourself
you're all messed up

i was loosing myself to somebody else
but now i see
i don't wanna pretend
so this is the end of you and me
cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
cause she's everything
everything i'm not

now wait a minute
because of you
i never knew all the things that i had
hey don't u get it
i'm not going anywhere with you tonight
cause this is my life

i was loosing myself to somebody else
but now i see
i don't wanna pretend
so this is the end of you and me
cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
cause she's was everything
everything i'm not

but now i see
i don't wanna pretend
so this is the end of you and me
cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
cause she's everything
everything i'm not

Shannon Noll-Lift

know you're hurting
Feels like your learning
'Bout life the hard way
And it ain't working
Seems like forever
That you've been falling
It's time to move on
Your life is calling, yeah

This is never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Chorus:
Cos i know how hard it canget
But you've gotta lift
You've gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But i know you're stronger
Stronger than this
You've gotta lift
You've gotta lift

When you feel your
Whole body's aching
What's left of your heart
It wont stop breaking
You've got to let go
You took a hit
Time to pick up now
Move on from this

This was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Crazy pics of the Bruderhood!!!!

2006-04-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

Juz felt like posting some crazy n stupid pics of mua.......Enjoy!!!!!

Finally bek in my homeland!!!

2006-04-14T03:36:00.000-07:00

Hey there pple!!!I'm finally bek in Spore after a long trip to Perth...Well so many things has happened there in which i prefer not to talk bout it...The trip to Perth was reli awesome..Ate a lot there,spend lots of time till the wee hours wit my sister's frens,watching shows and taking load of pics....Heheheeh!!!!!Juz wanna share some awesome pics wit ya...Enjoy guys!!!!!!Luv ya loads.....

2006-03-21T19:35:00.000-08:00

Here are some info ya'll shd noe...How to keep the romance flame burning ???

1. Hug him/her.

2. Write a love note.

3. Call him/her at work just to say "Hi".

4. Give him/her a foot massage.

5. Tell him/her a joke.

6. Caress him/her with slow gentle strokes.

7. Go for a walk with him/her.

8. Admit your mistakes.

9. Say: "I love you".

10. Indulge a whim.

11. Listen to him/her talk about an interest of his/hers.

12. Be trustworthy.

13. Instead of complaining, tell him/her what you would prefer.

14. Look at him/her when you're in a discussion.

15. Send him/her flowers. (They`re not just for us girls).

16. Compliment something he/she did.

17. Offer to help.

18. Ask him/her to show you how to do something.

19. Write him/her a poem about how special he/she is to you.

20. Ask him/her what he/she'd like sexually.

21. Take an afternoon drive.

22. Go away together for a weekend holiday.

23. Do something he/she wants to do.

24. Listen to him/her (even if he is boring you).

25. Plan a candlelit dinner.

26. Look at old photos together.

27. Serve him/her breakfast in bed.

28. Take a shower together.

29. Share sexual fantasies.

30. Do a work project together.

31. Give him/her an all over body massage.

32. Plan a picnic lunch.

33. Repeat what he/she says before answering.

34. Send him/her a card.

35. Surprise him/her with a gift.

36. Cook his/her favorite meal.

37. Put on some romantic music.

38. Put together a compilation tape of both your favorite songs.

39. Ask for his/her opinion.

40. Ask him/her how they feel.

41. Let him/her know when you are proud of them.

42. Invite him/her to a secret rendezvous.

43. Listen openly to his/her opposing opinion.

44. Watch his/her favorite TV program with them.

45. Watch a sunset together.

46. Play a game together.

47. Have him/her teach you something he/she knows.

48. Go to a movie of his/her choice.

49. Meet him/her for lunch.

50. Let him/her know you care.

Juz tot of posting pics these pics.....Enjoy!!!!

New mi 2006

2006-03-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

Well its been a long time since i've blogged..Things have been goin smoothly for mi...Juz finished my exams and wanna juz de-stress myself by doing things which i've been longing to do way before my exams started...Well i used to tink tat i have to rush into relationships coz i've been longing to have tat kind of intimate yet loving relationships.But to tell u the truth,im reli enjoying being single.I mean i do feel uneasy wen i see couples being affectionate out there but deep inside i noe the right guy will come along,maybe nt now but in the future..I am so proud of myself for getting tis far and forgetting bout the past!! So to reward myself,i gt a new hairdo..Its definetely different frm my old one..Loving it man...A definetely sexier and more matured new look..So pple enjoy the pics yar...Muackz!!!!

New beginning

2006-02-18T09:08:00.000-08:00

Well it's been so long since i've blogged..Been busy wit lots of stuff like projects and stuff...Nothing much has been goin on lately,juz tat been figuring out my life lately.Aniwae in the midst of me studying despite my flu and sore throat,juz wanna do a little promotion here!!!

If u guys are interested in workshops on job interviews and how to be successful in interviews,giv mi a buzz k..either on my email or hp no...Tis workshop is reli enriching.It actuali giv u tips on how to overcome ure fears and wat kind of qns will the interviewer ask u?For more enquiries,kindly contact mi aite!!!

sTAY tUNE for more updates yar...

True frens for life

2006-01-21T09:21:00.000-08:00

Juz wanna share some pics taken at Navi's birthday...Cake was yummy-licious....Was forced to eat a slice of cake upon the request of my dear frens..Hehehe!!!Well its been say a few months since ive tasted such a delicious cake....Went window shopping at Centrepoint wit my gd fren..He bought pants n blouse coz G2000 was having a sale...Well as expected he treated mi to a dinner at Pizza Hut..Hahaha!! Tink it's time i'm gonna change my look soon...Maybe to a more sexier and bitchy look..hehe!!!In the meanwhile juz enjoy my look for nw yar...Look out for the new mi in March...Heheehe!!!

Chocolate Ooze!!!!!

2006-01-13T19:26:00.000-08:00

Reli feeling so happy man!!!My choc stall named Chocolate Ooze was a success...Finally we made after all tat searching ard for events..Could not have made it without the help and dedication of my team mates....Luv ya guys...These are the things we sold...

1.Elephant step chocolate chip cookies
2.Milk choc plain truffles
3.Milk choc truffles wit hazelnut
4.Chocolate brownies
5.Chocolate cake

All were selling piping hot ah...Reli didn't expect my choc chip cookies to be selling so fast...Comments were like "its so delicious","taste like Famous Amos Cookies","can set up a cafe/bakery in Australia"...One thing is for sure tat u'll hear more frm mi in the future k..So look out for my cafe soon yar!!!So hw Rai,wanna be my partner???

1.Rai-Future Artist/Photographer/Fashion Designer
2.Yet Mun- Fantastic Brownie Maker..
3.Yijie-Onli take pics wit her cam unless forced to.hehehe!!
4.Rebecca-Our own accountant and store keeper..Heheeh!!!

Pictures Galore

2006-01-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to update so far...Juz wanna post some pics..Enjoy!!!

2006-01-07T11:19:00.000-08:00

Well its been a few days since i've blogged..Been busy wit common tests lately...Well have so many things going on with my life...Juz recently found out tat tis guy whom i met in sec school have been having feelings for mi since we were skooling..So its like 7-8 yrs lah...

Guy:I don't care how u tink or feel about me..But i always admire u inside my heart
since school and up till today...

I was so freaking shocked lah..Never did i expect he will have feelings for mi tat long....As for now i dun hav tat kind of romantic feelings for him...But he was like saying tat he's willing to wait for mi n tat he'll giv mi to tink about wat he had said ah..Part of me wanna be brave and take the risk of getting to noe him but the other part wans me to enjoy mi singlehood.Heheehe!!!We'll see wat happens yar..

Outing wit my babes

2005-12-29T09:24:00.000-08:00

Is there such a thing as a Perfect Man??

2005-12-29T07:52:00.000-08:00

Holo every1...Can u believe it???I gt punked...Spore style ah...Tis is hw the conversation goes..

Ifah:Wat time we're meeting 2dae??

Faizal:Hi I'm Faizal's gf,Linda...How u get my bf's no,where u live,which skool ure
frm,how long u noe him???

Ifah: Faizal is actuali one of my gd frens.Known him for like 7 years nw..I dun
have to tell u everything bout my life ryte??n wats the issue here??No big
deal!!

Linda: Well excuse mi.Tis is my bf ure talking about.N my bf said tat he dosen't noe
u at all.So who's being the liar ryte nw??

Ifah: Well i dun believe ure bf said all tat lah...We've been frens for so long...

Linda: So frm nw on,dun pester him anymore k..I dun wan our relationship to be
ruined because of u..(sms sent to mi)

Well in another words,My fren faizal punked mi lah..Linda was actuali his sister...
So freaking pissed ah..But laughed it off in a few mins....Aniwae thx a lot Faizal for playing a prank on me...Was reli gd man!!!
To make up for wat he did,Faizal treated mi delifrance....Yummy!!!!Serve him ryte ah.Hehehe!!!!!Took a lot of pics juz nw..Will post the pics once he send mi...We gt talking about old times and how our friendship can be tis strong ah..Ten he finally told mi tat he met tat guy i liked for 7 yrs..I was so shocked by wat he said ah..

Faizal: Juz wanna ask u..How can u do tis to Ifah??? She had feelings for u for like
7 years..Don't u pity her at all???

Mr K : Well i never asked for her to have feelings for mi...Aniwae mi have no
chemistry at all with her...Its her own business tat she has feelings for
me...

Wat a bastard ryte??Tell mi directly tat u dun have feelings for mi lah..No nid to beat ard the bush n say tat u nt ready for a relationship n tat u dun wanna be committed 1st lah..Bullshit man!!!Aniwae im so over u shitty ass!!!!!I noe deep inside tat i deserve sum1 much better than u!!!!!!!!!

Back here!!

2005-12-20T07:29:00.000-08:00

I'm so desperately in need of a job....Getting broke man!!!!Anyone who knows of any job vacancy,,pls tell mi aite....Nid to start saving up for my future.Had a heart to heart chat wit my eldest sis n it seems to me tat she's 100% ready to settle down wit her dear..Gonna freaking miss her wen she decides to settle down..Wish u all the best sis...I noe tat u n him will make it to the end.He better treat u like a princess if nt i'll be goin after him k....Heheheehe!!!!

Memories!!

2005-12-08T09:04:00.000-08:00

Never could i imagine tat i would miss being in a relationship..The cuddles,kisses,late night chats,dates and much more...Was juz tinking bout my past relationships especially during sec skool wen i was juz playing ard....U noe hw's teenagers are ryte?? So called puppy love.....Now im reli ready to start a wonderful journey wit my someone out there....Finally im over him!!!!!It took mi like nearly 7 yrs to completely erase my feelings for him....Reli glad tat episode is over...

Criteria for future bf:
1.Good sense of humour
2.Friendly,outgoing
3.Love the real me and nt my beauty or possessions....
4.Respect my family and elders
5.Honest..

Is it too much to ask???Some say my criteria is too high...But i feel that its wat every woman would want ryte???Borderline is tat someone who i can connect with and most importantly he love mi for who im really am....

Yummy-licious pics

2005-12-04T09:19:00.000-08:00

Yoohoo.Got an early x'mas pressie frm my gd fren....Got an Ipod Shuffle!!!!!!Words can't describe it man.....But its juz too bad tat mi n him can't be more than frens...Feelings are just nt there man and also i dun wan to ruin tis friendship i have wit him..U deserve better J....Sat was a day for pampering... Had Middle-Eastern food at Arab Street..Good ambience,fantastic music..I'll rate the food as 6/10...At least it was better than Ambrosia Cafe....Wanted to go for the belly-dancing show but it was so fully booked....So decided to go to Hiagen-Diaz for choc pampering.Hehehe!!!!Damn,getting rounder n rounder with all tis fantastic food......So guys enjoy the pics aite!!!!!

2005-12-01T09:25:00.000-08:00

Singlehood is Freedom

2005-12-01T08:43:00.000-08:00

Came across these great lyrics and felt tat i can relate to it..After 7 long yrs its reli hard to forget about the past but im glad tat now i am putting lots of effort in tat area....

Seems Like Just Yesterday,
You Were Apart Of Me,
I Used To Stand So Tall,
I Used To Be So Strong,
Your Arms Around Me Tight,
Everything, It Felt So Right,
Unbreakable, Like Nothing Could Go Wrong.

Here I Am, Once Again,
I'm Torn Into Pieces,
Can't Deny It, Can't Pretend,
Just Thought You Were The One,
Broken Up, Deep Inside,
But You Won't Get To See The Tears I Cry,

I Told You Everything,
Opened Up And Let You In,
You Made Me Feel Alright, For Once In My Life,
Now All That's Left Of Me,
Is What I Pretend To Be,
So Together, But So Broken Up Inside.

Great day wit my babes!!!

2005-11-25T18:23:00.000-08:00

Yesterdae my poly frens came over for hari raya visiting and also my student's family.....Reli wanna thank them for coming.....Muackz!!!!According to my frens,food was delicious and yummy......Earlier that day, his family came..Was relis surprised coz each time his mum wanted to come,it was cancelled..So im reli happy tat finally they came...During all the chats had together,he was reli quiet.Maybe he's tired or stressed lah...Well im nt hoping to get back to him coz ive been having tat wishful thinking for these past 7 yrs...Im juz moving forward to a new life...Will post new pics soon....

2005-11-24T06:46:00.000-08:00

2005-11-24T06:43:00.000-08:00

2005-11-24T06:39:00.000-08:00

2005-11-23T10:00:00.000-08:00

Things to look forward to:

1. FreshKon Competition in Gotham City
2. Choc Fiesta in Np
3. Exchanging gifts during christmas
4. My 23rd Birthday
5. Graduating frm Np
6. Shopping
7. Makeover
8. Overseas trips
9. Renovation of my own room
10.Dating all over again